Wendy

The Illusory nature of experience

400px-Double-alaskan-rainbowThis talk,  The Illusory nature of Experience , is a very good friend… and if you get it… you’ve got it!  …but what have you got?…. answers on a postcard/via contact me!

Last year I edited the transcriptions made by Sue Scott and Babs Littler of this talk which James gave in Macclesfield in 2012.

For me editing is very time-consuming but interesting  process as the intention is to produce a finished article which, whilst being easier to read than a transcript and hopefully flowing more easily, looses none of the integrity of the original. It’s a bit like working on a multi-faceted precious stone, like a diamond, cutting and polishing it so that it shines the most brilliantly.

One of the great beauties of these teachings is that the more you engage with them the more they reveal and there is maybe a deeper impact from a slower pace of engagement which the reading of a text invites. There are many others on the simplybeing.co.uk website.

I remember reading as a child of the story of the diamond cutter in Amsterdam charged with splitting the Cullinan diamond and how he fainted as he struck the blow thinking that the diamond had shattered into pieces rather than split in two…here the pressure is not so intense! yet i am conscious of the fact that it is all too easy for an error to creep in which could distort the intended meaning.

I’m very slow at this work but in the event James did not ask for any changes to be made so you can trust it as a valid representation of this teaching.

You can watch the videos of this talk on Vimeo or listen/download from the simplybeing.co.uk website.

 

London Talk…The seductive creativity of ignorance: delusion as a way of life

James Low gave a talk for Shang Shung UK in their new centre on 25th Feb.

Here is a link to that talk and video …. ‘Why emptiness is liberating’….

and I have just finished making something audible from the talk below that James gave at their invitation  last year

The seductive creativity of ignorance: delusion as a way of life

James Low, 23 April 2015

Organised by Shang Shung UK, at SOAS, London University

“You are not who you think you are and, since self-knowledge tends to be conceptual, it is easy to get lost. The self is a topic that is explored in all schools of buddhism. Tonight we will look at it from some aspects of the dzogchen tradition.”

Recorded by Baz Hurrell

You can listen to it here.

This recording was made on a mobile phone and trying to make it listenable has been a challenge. The replacement introduction was recorded later in the year… as for the rest, having just luckily found out how to process over-saturated sound, it’s mostly pretty good. I’m glad of this because it’s dharma in a nutshell… it includes the vision of a mandala of communication,connectivity,creative interactions, resonance and harmony…. and an explanation as to how our constructed sense of self is a shape which serves to limit our ability to inhabit that vision – “You can’t dance with a lobster!”

Amour

So, another Valentine’s Day comes and goes… I just looked at the post I made last year around this time which you can still find, if you wish, under Writings> With love on Valentine’s Day.

Those words still hold good but you should have a new present… an invitation to watch, if you can, the film Amour.

sweetpea-bunch-7402The tenderness of the husband towards his wife in the end stages of life brings tears to my eyes as i think of it. His ability to be with things as they are, sensing and feeling how best to respond to a changing and very challenging situation, his lack of self-pity and his ability to work around the bullying certainties of others who are out of touch are just beautiful……. and burst the heart open with the poignancy of the scent of a freshly-picked bunch of  sweet-peas flowers.

Winner of the 2012 Palme d’Or at the Cannes Film Festival….

 

 

Lamps – Ancient and Modern.

220px-Diya-1Ancient:

A Bradj (pre-Hindi) proverb says, “Chiraag tale andhera”, “the [utmost] darkness is under the oil-lamp (chiraag)”, meaning that what you seek could be close but unnoticed (right under your nose or feet), in various senses (and indeed, a lamp’s container casts a strong shadow).

and, from the Tao Te Ching of Lao Tzu (see Unchanging Wisdom post 2.11.15) –

Returning to heaven’s mandate is called being constant.
Knowing the constant is called ‘enlightenment’.
Not knowing the constant is the source of evil deeds because we have no roots.
By knowing the constant we can accept things as they are.
By accepting things as they are, we become impartial.
By being one with heaven, we become one with the Tao.
Being one with the Tao, we are no longer concerned about losing our life because we know the Tao is constant and we are one with the Tao.

Modern:

The  Seductive nature of Ignorance 23.4.2015  is a  recording of a short public talk which James gave in London.  If you haven’t tried out the audio delights on the simplybeing.co.uk website this might be a good recording to start with as it contains the Dharma in a nutshell. There’s lots else to explore on the website – it’s a treasury of texts and recordings. If like Aladdin you rub the lamp and engage with the genie then, well…. the pearl of great price could be yours!

World holocaust day…looking beyond belief

jewish-skull-capsSome Jews in Germany, France and Sweden have stopped wearing skullcaps for fear of reprisals.

Teachers of children learning under the academy system in England are not obliged to teach their pupils about the holocaust, but i think it is vital that we keep looking, to see what great harm we are capable of inflicting on each other (and ourselves) on the basis of our beliefs. If you can, do go to see the film ‘My Nazi Legacy’ which clearly shows this.

I recommend it also partly as an example of how through a distorted form of love/fear/blindness truly horrific objectification can be accepted as appropriate and normalised and for seeing how the ramifications of past turbulence continues to manifest through time, but also for what can happen when we try to force another to look through our eyes, trying to reach resolution on the basis of reflections. I think it will make you weep for all concerned.

Our certainties around the definitions we hold about what we are and how we behave – what other people are – what we can infer about them from their behaviour – and how and why the world is as it is – all should come under scrutiny within a dharma investigation.

Often there is unwillingness to carry out this investigation into the origin and validity of these definitions – for some this seems to be because any suggestion of a miss-take on the ego’s part  would be too destabilising to countenance, so they fearfully tighten up against the invitation.

Others, equally understandably, are just pretty happy with their take on the world. In knowing what’s what, there is a sense of certainty which feels powerful. The ego likes  a sense of being knowledgeable and powerful, it feels secure.

However these opinions are shaped by the karma of reactivity to past situations, to reactivity to situations encountered during this life. They form a distorting lens through which we view  all manifestations, pulling them into a shape which is recognisable to our own internalised matrices.  At the same time we ourselves are pulled into a position as ‘shapers’ and we become more rigid as a result of this repeated activity.

So we need to undertake this investigation with kindly curiosity. We won’t be able to work with what we are holding on to, and let go of that which is not helpful, without seeing what is under the covers. One man i spoke with thanked me as he left for exposing a prejudice of which he was unaware.  I had explained  why i did not really think the world would be a better place if we put all the fat people and stupid people in a rocket and send them out to space! He was not being ironic, he had just formed this quick opinion at some point and held onto it without really looking at the non-sense of it. Meditation can allow the appearance and release of all the buried….erm.. ‘treasure’.

As dharma practitioners, and I’m talking to myself here, in taking that which is transient and impermanent, lacking in inherent  self-nature, to be solid and real… and then hanging our own ‘Home-made’ label around its neck… we continue with the stupidity of the slavemasters who were able to debate philosophy and write the hymn ‘Amazing Grace’ on the jetty while the nearby slave ships were being cleared of bodies and disinfected.

‘Though the heavens may fall let justice be done’ was the statement preceding the judgement which led to the act abolishing  slavery in the UK. This judgement was about whether a slave was inherently a ‘slave-thing’ or was a ‘human-thing’ with potential.

From a dzogchen perspective, there are no ‘things’ per se and so labels cannot be applied in any enduring  sense – “Birds which live on the Golden mountain take on the colour of the sun.”

The desire for a simple label – hero/villain – denying the multiplicity of behaviours and capacities  can be seen in the film  ‘My Nazi Legacy’ and  heard in the radio programme The good Goering. It seems that, with brotherly love, even the ‘bad’ Goering did some good…and I also remember being struck by an interview with the daughter of Idi Amin who really loved her dad and found  it so hard to believe that he really had perpetrated such acts of violence…with her he was different.

If  we can see that the ‘bad’ and the ‘good’ are mixed in together… in ourselves as well as others… then hopefully our own judgements can soften and dissolve. People act as they do,  dependent on past and present causes and conditions, not in isolation, and in their relating to us own own behaviour is also implicated.

I think it helps to soften our view to think that, in the future or the past, despite our current beliefs and assertions  we may behave in the same way as those we label as ‘monsters’ and that, although we are not defined by our behaviours, if they are coming from the position of the ego then we will inevitably experience the effects of the karma created. Paying attention to the details while practising to realise the ground openness is the move needed to expand justice, which at its worst is just-ice, to the warmer waters of ‘just-as-it-is-ness’ and the arising of an appropriate response. With liberation from mental slavery the heavens may indeed fall… along with the hells!

Fear of Thirteen

Q.Why go to watch a film which is a monologue delivered by an ex-prisoner from America’s 1800Death Row?

A. Because its an extraordinary true story of actions having consequences way beyond what one might imagine…. of someone not inherently bad but coming to behave badly as one thing led to another…of judgments based on prejudice…of love, growth and of beautiful actions suddenly sparkling like diamonds in the muck…of luck/karma and its exhausting twists and turns.

As Dogwood productions says:

After 23 years on Death Row a convicted murderer petitions the court asking to be executed, but as his story unfolds, it becomes clear that nothing is what it seems.

Synopsis

A Death Row inmate petitions the court asking to be executed. As he goes on to tell his story, it gradually becomes clear that nothing is quite what it seems. THE FEAR OF 13 is a stylistically daring experiment in storytelling that is part confessional and part performance. Nick, the sole protagonist, tells a tale with all the twists and turns of classic crime drama with a final shocking twist which casts everything in a new light.

 

‘Glad tidings’ now published….

The ‘Glad tidings recordings’  from the retreat in Sharpham (see post ‘Glad tidings of great joy’… underneath the cartoon below) have just been published on the simplybeing.co.uk website – thanks to Chris Leißmann.

There are 17 mp3s lasting about 25 mins each (the keynotes of a few are listed). The five-starred tape 5B  became tracks 15 and 16 in the recordings… these are  the January cracker!

 

Inspiration….Chatral Rinpoche

 

A few days ago i heard that His Holiness Chatral Sangye Dorje Rinpoche attained parinirva at the beginning of this month, at the age of 102.

When i received this news i was very struck by these photographs of him.

His Holiness Chatral Sangye Dorje Rinpoche His Holiness Chatral Sangye Dorje Rinpoche

These are images of a great Lama, a Lama of Lamas…an embodiment of the dharma, the result of intense unwavering practice.

In the beginning Chatral Rinpoche undertook the starting/ Ngondro practice fourteen times in all. This is a practice which is normally undertaken just the once (and completed with great relief  as each of the five constituent ‘nails’, or re-orientations, is repeated a hundred thousand times). So this would involve making a commitment of time, i think, well in excess of seven years but each time he came to the end of the practice he felt clearer and stronger and so began again.

Following this he received many profound teachings from the great teachers of his time and then set about putting them into practice.

At first living with the goal of attainment of the dharma for the benefit of all beings, and then living to bring the benefit of that practice into our troubled world in the manner appropriate to his way of being, he had different roles including that of a wandering practitioner hermit, a teacher to the most fortunate, a liberator of beings in captivity and also, later in life, as a husband and father. All this was accomplished with integrity – the  activity of compassion which arises directly as the expression of profound wisdom.

As far as possible he avoided worldly entanglements, would not waste his time teaching those whose hearts were not ready to accomplish what he could offer, and he was highly disciplined in his practice. Going to sleep at ten and waking at three, the day was filled mostly with practice… fitting in what else needed to be done in the late afternoon and evening. On retreat in the mountains he would use the practice of tumo to keep from freezing and lived on tsampa (ground barley flour) rations and whatever plant matter was edible when supplies ran short. However it would seem that like others i have met living under somewhat similar conditions his ease of being far surpassed those used to haut cuisine.  His ‘retreat centre’ was his little tent or a cave for shelter…no heating, air conditioning or piped water.  He lived very simply and the donations which he received were used to benefit others…no ‘lining of his pockets’ – no pockets to line! Also he completely eschewed politics.

So self-cherishing was long gone, realisation achieved, and his commitment to all beings could not have been greater….how many like him remain in the world?

His feet no longer walk the earth but, in those he taught and teaches – those touched by his heart – his legacy continues.

James received teachings from him and said that he found him to be very impressive and at the same time very kind, helping him a great deal.

Hopefully, for those of us who are practising the dharma, knowing a little bit more about this great being’s way of life is more inspiring than daunting and perhaps highlights what is of genuine value in the way we spend the remaining precious hours and energy of our own lives.

Whilst direct imitation is unlikely to be the way for (m)any of us! … any move we make towards a whole-hearted commitment to the welfare of all beings, to practicing so that we are bringing the dharma through and as us into each moment of the day, will act in some measure as a counterbalance to, or dissolution of, the turbulence of these times… and move us more and more in his direction.

With great sympathy for those close to him who feel bereft, and especially kind wishes to his wife from whose interview much of the above information was garnered.

Sarva mangalam

 

Here are some words of advice from a talk he gave at Bodhgaya posted on the Shambhala blog.

 

 

 

When we make the ego King …

bwhn706_hi…..When we make the ego the king and try to control the world (or control ourselves), we may gain some power for a moment or two…If we go for stabilisation on the level of manifestation and forget the ground then we may be able to make things happen. However, although this control may be temporarily achievable, we have cut – fundamentally – the line of awareness into the ground nature of the process.

From the talk James gave at Sharpham 20/2/2000 which will shortly be published.

 

 

Click on the cartoon to see the full picture ……Merry Christmas!

 

Glad tidings of great joy …. : )

crackerBy Christmas day, if all goes well at this end, the recordings of James  teaching at Sharpham in Devon February 2000 will be on their way for Chis to put up onto the audio section of the  Simplybeing.co.uk  website… digitised and with most of the hum, tape hiss, loud coughs and throat clearing removed! I’ll let you know when its made its way there.

The setting and style of communicating in this retreat is intimate and it speaks to the alsolute heart of the practice…(if it was you who made the recording do let us know and take the credit)…and in my opinion tape 5B is a ‘cracker’ – maybe a nut-cracker!

In the meantime here’s another  gift of truth from one of the ‘wise men’… which i jotted onto the back of an envelope some time ago….

‘If you believe in conceptual elaboration, if you believe in the creativity of your own mind as telling you the truth about the world, you will delude yourself and stay in the staleness of the repetition of your own mental confectionery.’    mmm hmm!                               James Low

Now published …. above the cartoon above!

A film of thoughts – ‘He called me Malala’

Malala_Yousafzai_at_Girl_Summit_2014I was helping a neighbour with something a bit tricky  and saw that she had the book “He named me Malala” on her bookshelf. I had already been toying with the idea of going to see it, so that triggered my asking if she would like to come with me.

By watching other people, who are not essentially different from us, as they  embody characteristics that we feel we lack, we can get a sense or flavour of that tone and absorb it. Courage and the determination not to be overawed by circumstances, with a sense that your life and the life of others matters come across strongly in this film and afterwards the neighbour, who is ‘finding her feet’ after a difficult time said that she was so thankful to have seen it and would remember it until she died!

As I was watching the film I enjoyed memories of journeys to different but somewhat similar places, imagining smells and warmth evoked by the pictures of the streets and countryside appearing in front of me.

I saw  pictures of Malala and her  family members showing different expressions –  a proud dad, a brave girl, a smiling mum, cheery brothers – simple comments that fitted the pictures shown of these doubtless complex and variable characters.

By bringing my own imagination into the picture, I could conjure up the fear they were living with.

I could imagine the smell of the plastic as the videos were burned in the street.

I could think how shocking for her to be with her friends sitting in class and then be faced with a man carrying a gun who shoots at her and her friends because she had been bold enough to speak out about their situation and to name the  people who were  having such an impact on their lives.

I could try to imagine how her mum and dad felt after she was shot… but the film moves so quickly onto the next image.

I thought how lucky to get such good surgical care.

I thought how lucky to have a team of physiotherapists to help her to get better.

How lucky to have a cochlear implant fitted as the repairs to her skull were being carried out.

How lucky to be living in a house, safe in Birmingham.

How sad to be living in a house in Birmingham leaving behind the colours smell, connections, history culture and weather of her homeland.

How nice to be talking with other girls like yourself in different countries.

How lovely to be able to deal with awkward questions so charmingly.

How nice to have a Dad cooking breakfast.

How hard not to feel able to be understood by her classmates.

How busy and directed her life is.

How calm and confident she seems.

How having a purpose gives her life a shape.

What a nice smile and giggle she has.

How lucky we are if we have inspiring teachers and the chance to learn.

How tricky it might be for her to find time/space for other relationships and interests.

–– just a sample of the huge number of thoughts which arose while watching the film.

There I was, sitting in a chair inside a cinema in England, watching a projection – points of light forming images of light of different shapes and colours – and listening to such a variety of different sounds.

As i watched this display so many thought and feelings arose and passed; and it was out of the movement of energy – of sound and light– in combination with these thoughts and feelings, in that theatre of experience, that i experienced my own film.

Later another friend who had seen the film asked me in an email what i thought about it, and Malala.

I had stopped thinking about it … I could say something…but, as always with experience, what can be said about anything is like saw-dust compared with the experience itself….. A few sentences of concepts, biased by my own viewpoint, relating in a backwards way to something which has gone sounds as dull as ditchwater. Experience is unique and evanescent, whatever i said would only be  some touch of  connection…

…so I mentioned some of the good qualities which i had seen in that portrayal of Malala. Then, partly because this person had mentioned the quiet beauty of Malala’s mum, i thought some more about her and said how big i thought her heart must need to be in order to be at ease with the time Dad and daughter spend together, and how hard it must  be for her to cope with our lousy weather, the awkwardness of trying to communicate in a foreign language, and the sadness of the loss of connection with her way of life back home…

…we really do speak to each other across a void using words which are often such poor servants, also we have little idea, unless we are with the recipient, as to how what we are saying is being received.

So it’s not possible to be certain that you will enjoy this film; our moods, expectations, stress levels, critical judges, the sound volume (of the film and sweet chomping neighbours), the comfort of the seat, the ambience, tiredness, biases and our own interpretative matrices can all affect our appreciation.

It could feel a bit like a very impactful news-reel but If you do  go to see it i hope you also will enjoy it. In my case cake and coffee beforehand while looking out at the city lights, and the neighbours enjoyment contributed to my own!

P.S. Apparently the book explores the situation in greater depth.

From a practitioners point of view…..

I once asked James about the authenticity of an object in my possession and he just made a whirling motion with his fingers….reminding me that within relative reality there are many interesting conceptual avenues down which I could  wander, all of which will remove me from awareness …That ‘I will never be caught by a thought’ is the leitmotif which, until stability is gained, can easily be overwhelmed by strong emotions. So, for meditators, the chapter in Simply Being, The Expansive Oral Instructions: 3, the five perfections, is very helpful in instructing how to remain relaxed in our own place, regardless of the thoughts arising in response to the five senses.

In this way all thoughts are liberated in natural freedom and so whatever arises in the mind becomes an aid to meditation.

 

 

 

Emerson College 2014 recordings now available

The recordings of that weekend in July 2014 when the Heart Sutra was explained are now posted on the Simplybeing.co.uk website; you can play and listen or download.

If you were not at that weekend maybe you’ll make it next year. The venue is delightful, the food good, and the quality of the teachings speak for themselves.

You can either camp or stay indoors. There are likely to be movement /Qi Gong workshops, music and dance…all in the company of (in my experience) wonderfully warm and open-hearted people.

P.S. An excellent edited transcript of the Eifel  2008 retreat is also now available and ties in well with this, exploring the illusory nature of reality and emptiness from the hinayana, mahayana, tantra. mahamudra and dzogchen perspectives.

 

 

I want you to know…o…o…oh…oh!… am i talking ‘at you’ or ‘with you’?

Some years ago I remember imparting some ‘definite knowledge’.  At the time I was talking to someone else as well as James, and i had my back to him. However I remember noticing that the quality of his attention had changed. Because, at the time, i was pleased at knowing something a little unusual, i could have imagined that this was because he was surprised or impressed.

Since then i  have had the experience of listening to many people telling me, and other people, the truth about me, about others, and about how things are, or how they should be done, and I suspect that he was in fact  noticing the tightening of the voice and body which goes with having the sense that ‘this is how it is, I know! ‘.
At that point i had lost touch with the ground and gone into a ‘world of one’… speaking out my confident assertion, with actually no particular regard to the listeners. So he was more likely to have been registering that change in me… from an openness to closed certainty.

There can be an artificiality, a tightness and lost disconnectedness, when someone is regurgitating ingested ‘facts’ with a desire to be the ‘one who knows’.  Although its quite understandable to want to be someone who knows, particularly in our culture where becoming a library of information is confused with wisdom, and especially if one’s ‘offerings’  have been disparaged in the past…however it is the discourse (monologue!) of the ego seeking recognition/affirmation.  It can be not very welcoming to others and can come with a, not very tasty, seasoning of pride.

Communication which is really addressed to the other, attuned in seeing and feeling how they are and what is helpful, cooked just for them… not too much and not too little… Even if it perhaps needs sometimes to be directive, it will be received and digested much more readily than a shower of ego driven ‘spears’.

BTW There is something very uncomfortable about the visual image of having a point of view and sitting rigidly upon it (oh…brings tears to the eyes!) images-3

a nice flat bed of nails seems inviting by comparison.                  images-2

A prayer for now and always, for those – all – who are suffering.

This prayer is called The Four Immeasurables.

It is an every-day prayer for the release from suffering for everyone suffering now; a prayer that past suffering may be released and healed and that future suffering avoided.

So it’s a prayer for everyone which can be said by everyone. At the time of saying it brings the links between us all into speech, and this energy moves out into the world motivated by a profound gesture of goodwill:

May all beings have happiness, and know the root of happiness

May all beings be free from suffering, and cut the root of suffering

May they abide in happiness free from suffering

May they rest in equanimity free from aversion (turning away from or hardening the heart) to enemies and strangers, and from grasping at, or clinging to, friends and relatives.

 

How to enjoy and appreciate without appropriation?

Why bother extending this prayer to all beings rather than just the ones that we like, that we think like us?

To unpack this and look at a very big way of loving  you might like to listen to the talk James Low gave in Macclesfield on  Love,compassion, joy and equanimity. 

 

 

In Tibet this is a prayer has been said for thousands of years; below is a recording of  James teaching it at Macclesfield

 

 

the words are below…

4-Immeasurables

A downbeat yet somehow encouraging offering.

150px-Punishment_sisyphThis recording of Alain de Botton’s talk on pessimism posted on vimeo is a refreshing change from the often promulgated notion that  happiness and success are within the palm of your hand if only you try hard enough or buy the right book. That if they are not what you are experiencing then something has gone wrong…you have failed… and that those who have the good things have got them solely by their own efforts.  He suggests that, in fact, these might not be the worthwhile goals of life; that sadness fully experienced is of value and there is a cheapening  of one’s humanity in brushing it aside.

From a deep dharma perspective all experiences are empty therefore they can be fully felt, and their richness experienced, without fear of being overwhelmed.  Each experience then naturally dissolves making way for the next.

The greater the range of tolerance to the experiences, the greater the compassion available as this brings a reduction in the ‘turning away’ from the undesirable or desire for fusion with the ‘desirable’.  Any attempt  to push experience away (avoidance) or to hang on to it (grasping) means a separation from the flow of experience and the creation of  a false position (knitted from the experiences – thoughts feelings and sensations) and with that a sense of continuity, of substance, to both experience and experiencer.

It looks like James recommended it and i hope it lifts your… errm…  spirits!

 

P.S The picture is of Sisyphus (see Camus on pessimism)